Rugged

Let me fall in love with my despair,

I don’t want to answer anyone anymore.

Yes I am miffed; yes I am crestfallen,

My soul is hurt inside me because.

I never asked you to love the good of me,

& you don’t have the rights to hate the bad of me.

Because of the people I had, I lost the most of me,

The remaining is now going to guard the rest of me.

You may choose not to read my words,

They might hurt you but they define me.

Don’t try to push me, to know me,

I am cragged, I am too contagious.

I write, I express, I cry and I will because I feel,

Don’t look for answers; it’s a question, not me.

बर्बाद।

कुछ भीतर कुछ बाहर,

निशां बाकी है आज भी।

यादें जिंदा थी और हैं,

कल भी और आज भी।

उम्मीदें थी और रहेगी,

अब भी और आगे भी।

वक्त  बीता संग तारीखें ढली,

बदल गए वो भी और हम भी।

ऐसा क्या था और क्यों था,

हम समझे भी और नहीं भी।

आ गऐ हैं हम ऐसे दोराहे पर,

जहां जिदंगी भी है, मौत भी।

बदस्तूर जारी रहेगी खुद से ये जंग,

चाहते हैं कि खत्म हो भी, नहीं भी।

यूँ ही सिरफिरा  नहीं पुकारते लोग मुझे,

बर्बाद हुँ मैं और तबाह हो जाओगे तुम भी।

the other ME

I am all alone here but,

Not looking for the salvation

Those crumpled wet pillows,

Has soaked so many stories.

Shaved body and the perfect curves,

Are not the luxury for me.

Written, stroked words again & again,

There is disgust piled up in me.

Tired and unknown to self,

My soul is itching inside.

Everything is transient here,

So should be my anxiety.

I don’t know about the end,

Just going to put my pen down.

that Someone....

She stops the time with her vary smile,

Every look of her leaves me amaze.

Her presence holds you like an anchor in thunder,

No reasons, no excuses to distrust her firm.

Wind has given away its colors to her hair,

Her elegant style touches me like a poetry.

It can never be enough of her for me,

All shades of her hidden in her eyes.

She is loud yet she is quiet,

One has to open the door she lives behind.

She is a wild dancer of her thoughts,

Roams like an independent soul in her own world.

You can never bound her, can never free her,

Can just admire her for what she is.

Awakened Soul

Been flying down like a Quill in the dark somewhere,

living in the despair, in the despair of concealed Saviour.

Despite being hurt often, something is left there in me,

something which tickles me to gaze for Utopia.

Not always I have felt vulnerable to the feelings,

but the tiredness of my heartbeats looming on my face,

And I am on constant hunt of a shelter.

all I need is to hide myself into the Ecstasy around.

My bolted soul is knocking hard inside to emerge,

I'm holding it firm as the Demon out is set to embrace it.

I have conquered the dark and know there is no fringe exist,

Smirking now, as I perceived I wasn't the first, I won't be the last.

The lone strand…

I wish you could be my first kiss ever,

Like I always wanted to steal your soul.

 

My heartbeats hopped out of my heart,

When your slumped lips smiled at me.

I am utterly restless to make you mine,

And I can see movement of your stroppy legs.

We both know, it lies deep down inside us,

It can only end with a contented morning.

A morning wrapped us in one white sheet,

With essence of night we owed together.

lost dawn

I have been quiet, I have been talkative since long,

because my own heart being a Rebel to me.

I felt nights were trying to be too dark to me,

might be my darkness asserted with them.

 

Solution I see to my every problem is quitting,

but I can’t quit yes I can’t, because this is so me.

Its not new to me, it has been always there,

Its another reflection, resemblance to the old me

And the people around me, just act too well,

i pass a smirk and always kept my despair hidden.

What I want? Wish to be dejected, to be alone,

as that’s how I shall be risen again & again.