Awakened Soul

Been flying down like a Quill in the dark somewhere,

living in the despair, in the despair of concealed Saviour.

Despite being hurt often, something is left there in me,

something which tickles me to gaze for Utopia.

Not always I have felt vulnerable to the feelings,

but the tiredness of my heartbeats looming on my face,

And I am on constant hunt of a shelter.

all I need is to hide myself into the Ecstasy around.

My bolted soul is knocking hard inside to emerge,

I'm holding it firm as the Demon out is set to embrace it.

I have conquered the dark and know there is no fringe exist,

Smirking now, as I perceived I wasn't the first, I won't be the last.

The lone strand…

I wish you could be my first kiss ever,

Like I always wanted to steal your soul.

 

My heartbeats hopped out of my heart,

When your slumped lips smiled at me.

I am utterly restless to make you mine,

And I can see movement of your stroppy legs.

We both know, it lies deep down inside us,

It can only end with a contented morning.

A morning wrapped us in one white sheet,

With essence of night we owed together.

lost dawn

I have been quiet, I have been talkative since long,

because my own heart being a Rebel to me.

I felt nights were trying to be too dark to me,

might be my darkness asserted with them.

 

Solution I see to my every problem is quitting,

but I can’t quit yes I can’t, because this is so me.

Its not new to me, it has been always there,

Its another reflection, resemblance to the old me

And the people around me, just act too well,

i pass a smirk and always kept my despair hidden.

What I want? Wish to be dejected, to be alone,

as that’s how I shall be risen again & again.

sCars Repressed

& I am not happy neither I am sad,

Just baffled as there is no reason for it.

Chaos of unknown wishes is all around,

Cannot see anything out of despair.

Desolated lyrics matches with my agony,

Only thing I am loving is this resonance.

Time is not healing it, actually condensing it,

It has attained the level of immortality within.

Place to resist is the corner filled with nihility,

No, not because it’s safe because it can’t be noxious.

Everything is rugged out there even the wind and,

It has abraded the scratches to the old wounds.

I chuckled at it, why?.. There is no new blood,

It's the same ripped scars with the frozen feelings..!! 

sCars

I am not listening the rhythm,

I am not liking the surroundings.

My shoulders are tired of my own weight.

And air around me making me suffocate.

Might be I am caught in feel of regret,

But I know so everyone else is.

Because a few loved, a few hated,

A few left and some just stayed together.

Old scars are emerging from their place,

& I have concealed the stories behind them.

Consequently I am loving the pain it caused,

I mummer & giggle as no one can know it.

There is a concealed tempest inside me,

Which is constantly shoving me to burst.

And I am holding it to the utmost, I have to,

If not, it will shatter away everything.

  

अनकही .....

आज फिर से दिल उदास सा हुआ है मेरा ,
वजह पता नहीं है और ना जानने की इच्छा है। 

पर कुछ है अनजाना सा है मेरी ज़िन्दगी में,
जो जाता है और आता है लौट कर बार बार। 

हर बार खुद का कुछ हिस्सा मुझमे छोड़ जाता है ,
और कुछ मेरा हिस्सा अपने साथ ले जाता है। 

फिर आखिर में रह जाता हूँ मैं कुछ अधूरा सा ,
करता हूँ क़वायद शुरू फिर से खुद को पूरा करने की। 


ना हार मानने को जी चाहता है न कोशिश करने को ,
जब भी नज़र आता है धुंधला सा अक़्स मेरे जेहन में।  

अब तो डर लगने लगा है ज़िन्दगी से इस सोच में की ,
कहीं मरना मेरा जीने जितना मुश्किल तो ना होगा। 
  

!!The Ugly Nights!!

the nights has started becoming longer,

and my eyes has stopped getting sore ..

my mind is racing with clock ticking,

& i'm wide awake without any meaning..

i wanna sleep, i wanna snore but i'm failing,

my heart is tired of inadequate quenching..

i want to crawl but the time is flying,

the more i'm trying the more its tumbling..

my every step makes me feel i'm drowning,

i know i'm lost alone but i am still walking..

life feels like a drawn but a colorless painting,

am i prey because these ugly nights are hunting..